Happiness

Happiness..... what to say about that? I know I have been lacking it lately, and I am sure you have all noticed that through my posts. I think I am bringing myself down, and I am seeing it not only in myself but especially in Ryan. He is the closest thing to me and sometimes that can be a bad thing because I choose to target my frustration towards him. 

So after saying this, that I say in all my posts, about me being sad and blah blah blah, I have chosen to build myself a new path. No longer am I going to be upset and sad about myself or other things, I am going to only be positive, and find the positive things in everything. Even if I should be in a situation ever that it is the hardest thing I have ever done, with the hardest situation to be positive or happy, I am going to make myself do that. I know it will make my life so much easier.

I am going to focus on Ryan and myself, and our relationship and our life. Going to put my whole being into making us happy, and making a future for us. I know that once I do that, and focus on us being happy that it will make everyone around us happy, and make just a great atmosphere. Great things will come to us and the people close to us, if we (mainly me) remain positive, and look forward and only forward. Like as if I have blinders on, I can only see the future. 

So if this new me gets to be annoying, don't let me know, don't say anything to me because I am going to immerse myself into it, and put my whole heart into making a great atmosphere, and changing this awful attitude I have. 

To anyone that I have offended or upset because of these posts, I am truly sorry, and I was thinking about no one but myself, and how upset I was at the time. It's time for change!!! :D Let's do this!