Linkage

Boring, boring day..... per usual. Went out to lunch with Ryan, and came home to clean up and go through all of my junk. Ryan had to go to class at 4 so I decided to pull out the scrapbooks and work on them. I need to go get a bunch of pictures printed off my camera, and get the pictures off my computer, so I can add them in there too.

In this post I was really wanting to link you guys to some awesome Youtube pages. So if you have a youtube account, you should subscribe to these people. And if you do not have an account.... well you should make one!!! Or just occasionally check out their pages. The first person is Sxephil, aka Philip DeFranco. Now if you are conservative, and do not like cussing or hearing "dirty" things, then you should not watch him. He talks about news related things, but makes them hilarious. So check him out!

http://www.youtube.com/user/sxephil?feature=chclk

The next person you should take some time to check out is the Shaytards. I have linked you to them before, but I seriously can not get enough of them. You will fall in love with their family. The videos can get kind of long, but are definitely worth the time you take to watch them. 
http://www.youtube.com/user/SHAYTARDS?feature=chclk 

Okay and my last two are beauty channels, but they are my two favorite. I always love watching these two's videos. So if you are a girly girl and like watching hair tutorials, or makeup related things, then you should check these two out for sure. I could name a TON more girls, but these two are my favorite. Now if you are into the beauty channels, like me, you should let me know, and I'll let you know of some more awesome girls. 
http://www.youtube.com/user/JLovesMac1 

http://www.youtube.com/user/dulcecandy87?blend=1&ob=4 

So there you go. It makes me feel good to give these links to you guys, because I just love these youtubers soo so much. They are the reason Randi does not get her homework done. I can not blame facebook because I am more addicted to Youtube. 


Well I guess that is all for now, gonna hang out here. Maybe, possibly do some homework, not really sure. 


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8mIsTbF8z7U&feature=recentlik

Lovin this ^^^^^^^






  

Pulled Groins and Breakdowns..... whaaat?

Vacation time again! It really feels like I'm not working anymore, which is a good thing because I need to catch up with school work, but also a bad thing because we need monies! I worked today, and now I am off for two days. I talked to my boss today, and I am going to be PR, or only working as needed. So if someone goes on leave or vacation or whatever, I will come in and work a couple days, and I am going to work the X shift on the weekends. Which is only 5:30 - 7:30, but with that shift, I get paid more. So all in all it works out pretty well.

Ryan pulled a muscle, and has been hurtin the last couple days. We have been walking, and icing it tonight, so hopefully that will help it heal. His mom and I agree that he probably shouldn't play hockey on Monday, but he says that he is playing no matter what if he feels better. If it still hurts he will think about not playing..... Boys so stubborn!

The other day, I basically had a breakdown. I have been worrying about us getting jobs, and paying bills, and the other day it just all took over. I got in the shower, and was just so upset. I think I just sat down in the shower and let the water run over me for a good half an hour. Everyone probably thought I had drowned. Then I came out, and took it out on Ryan. I hate how I do that, keep everything bottled up till I have a breakdown, and take it out on him. Almost immediately after the stupid argument I start and carry on to him (because he usually just sits and takes it), I feel awful about it. I am so blessed to have him. He just lets me be upset, and then he apologizes.... when I should be the one apologizing. I am so lucky for such a great partner. But anyways, I was just thinking about how he doesn't have a job yet, and I was still looking at the time, which I will probably still do, and I was thinking about how we had the best jobs EVER in Effingham, with amazing friends. We also would have school there, and my family to take us in till we could afford our own place. We have several things there, that we don't have here. The only great thing about being here is Ryan's family is absolutely amazing to me, and are great to us. I know my family would do the exact same thing for us, it's just knowing we would be leaving his family here. But I also left my family, so I know Ryan could do it, if we were to choose to move back.

I don't know, it's extremely overwhelming, and I struggle all the time going through all of this in my head. Seeing us struggle here, and knowing we wouldn't be in Effingham...... kinda tough. But it is all going to work out in the end. I just have to focus on school, because that is why I moved here, and to be with Ryan of course! So those are what I need to be focusing on right now. 

I love my family at home, and if you guys read this... I love you so so much, more than anything, and I hope you know that I miss you and think about you every single day. I think a part of me gets upset also about the whole situation because I miss my family, and puppies, and friends A LOT. Things will get better! There is always tomorrow, and just seeing Ryan and knowing I'm here with him helps me calm myself when I get upset. 

Tomorrow we shall...... hmmmmm.... I really don't know! haha. Probably do homework, and just hang around the house. That is my guess, but we will see!! Goodnight everyone, this girl is tired!

My little man, Kada! Isn't he just adorable! Goodness I miss my puppies!

Ups and Downs

Today definitely had it's ups and downs. What a crazy day... for real. So it started off pretty amazing. I got paid today, and it goes straight into my bank account so I got online to see how big the check was. It was the biggest check I have ever made in my working career, and I have been working since I was 15. I was not expecting it to have the numbers it did! So I was extremely happy about that. I got in the shower, and as soon as I was out and doing my hair, Ryan knocks on the door nonstop, and says to get out there. Takes me into his parents' room, and shows me that it is SNOWING outside, yes I said snowing. I couldn't believe it. Well I guess I shoulda been able to believe it, because that is how it is here, nice one day, and snow the next. It snowed, and melted, and the sun came out within about 45 minutes. So crazy. So that upset me a little by seeing that, but I cheered up once it stopped.

So after I was ready, we went to Walmart to pay off our bill. We have a walmart credit card thing, that they give you a certain balance, and you just use it like a credit card. Well we had bought a Wii with a lot of equipment with it, so we had a balance of about 300 bucks on there. And with my wonderful check we figured we would just pay it off so we wouldn't have to worry about it. We get there and get up to the register to do this, and I can't find my card. I had recently changed purses because my grandma sent me two new ones, so I figured it was just in my old one. Get home, and couldn't find it anywhere. So we choose to pay the bill online, and report the card lost, so we will receive a new one in about a week. Boy, do I feel stupid. We still haven't found it, so who knows where it is. 

After this whole deal, we ate some food, and Ryan was not feeling well, so we laid down and he took a good hour, hour and a half nap, while I browsed youtube :). He wakes up and we head to Payless because I really need some shoes. I found a couple, but I'm a cheapie and wouldn't buy any of them. Come home and hang out till his game at 8:15. 

His team didn't win but they played extremely well. It was back and forth the entire game. The first period Ryan got hurt, but decided to stay and play the rest of the game. He is definitely feeling it now! Hope he can get up and around for class tomorrow! Now we are home, and he is playing online with his friends, and I did some homework. Tomorrow he should be receiving some things he ordered online, and I am going to bust my butt with some homework, so I'm not overwhelmed once the beginning of the month rolls around!

Well all in all it was a great day! Got to talk to my grandma on the phone and my mom. I miss them like crazy, and can't wait to see them, whenever I should be able to do that. I hope everyone is having a great start to their week! Love all of you! :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6bPVB4AjQYo&feature=related 

Absolutely amazing! Only a couple more weeks till we getta see him live :D

Goodness

Wow, my life is really boring. I get on here planning on writing, and then I get here and have nothing to write about.

The other night Ryan was complaining about his chest hurting him. And this happens quite a bit and it's kinda scary. He refuses to go to the doctor to get checked out. He thinks he is just fine, and obviously something is wrong. Well the other night, it was bad enough that he was constantly complaining about it. And you never know what could happen. Something awful happened in Ryan's family this last year, about problems with their chest, so I got really scared. I was crying, and very upset. I was scared he wasn't going to wake up in the morning. It really made me think. I know I would be completely lost without him. I wouldn't be able to go on, I just know it. He is the reason for every single thing I do, so what would my life be without him? Just thinking about losing him, and being without him brought about some serious emotions, that I definitely was not able to handle.

That has basically been the breakdown of the last couple days. Besides that, they have been pretty great. Working and attempting to pass some tests for school. One I passed, the other I didn't. I hadn't even looked at this information for either test until right before I had to go and take them. That is what this job is doing to me. So I am hoping once November comes around I will be able to get those crappy grades up. Especially knowing they are going to be looking at my grades in order to determine if I get into the LPN program or not, and some day the RN program. 

My grandma sent me two purses in the mail! I was so excited. They are so perfect and I love them. She is the best. Makes me really miss my family something awful when they do great things like that for me. Let's me know how much they love me and care, and just let's me know that they are thinking about me and haven't forgotten about me here in Utah haha. Asked my dad to send me some of his bread pudding in the mail, but it wouldn't make it here still being edible :( so he is going to send me the recipe :). Boy do I miss them. And I'm not going to get to go home to visit until the summer sometime. That's a long way away! 

Ryan's brother Chris is moving here in a few days, and we are all preparing, and getting excited/nervous! We are going to have a full house here. Gonna be pretty crazy, but will be great to all be together. He is bringing his dog with him, so Boss and Sparky will have a new friend. He should be here on Halloween! Only  a week away, and guess who has to work? Yep, that's me. But that is officially my last day. I think I am going to ask if I can still stay on, and just work the weekend night shifts. Maybe? If not, I completely understand, but we will see. Worked from 6 to 3 yesterday, and went back in and worked 5:30 to 8 that night. So it was a looong day! 

Tomorrow is a look for jobs, do errands day. It should be a good day. It has been soooo cold here though, just hope maybe it will be a little more like fall and less like winter right now.... please!? Now, it is time for bed. Going to bed at 8:30 every night and getting up at 5 really makes a girl tired.

Hopefully I'll have something fun to talk about tomorrow, get some posts in 
 before I go back to work on Wednesday!! Goodnight everyone!! 

My pretty Izzy, boy do I miss her. Love you little girl.

Boring Wednesday

Last night we went and watched Jackass 3d at the movie theater. They just recently got a 3d projector, and I am sooo happy about that. Movin up! lol But anywho, the movie was awesome! I know a lot of people would not like it, it is extremely disgusting but hilarious at the same time. Just my cup of tea..... whaaat?! But I was laughing the entire time, gagged once, but laughed through the whole thing. You have to have a strong stomach to watch it. 
I only have a few more weeks of work left, until I am officially unemployed. This really worries me. I know I "quit" because I need more time for school, and that is EXACTLY what I am going to get once November rolls around. BUT knowing I have bills to pay and essential things that I need money to get, I get worried. I have been checking in with the local job connection here in town, and there always seems to be the same things. We apply for the jobs that say they are hiring, but here nothing from them. And a couple weeks later it says they are still looking for help. What kinda bs is that? I guess that's Vernal for ya.
So I am just praying for something to come our way. I am not the type of person to feel okay with asking my parents for money. I only do if I am in dire need of it, like a last resort, and even then I almost come to tears asking. I am just thankful to be able to live without paying rent, and not have to worry about certain things, like food and washing my clothes. Ryan's family is absolutely wonderful to me, and I couldn't be more thankful. I am lucky to have them. 
So that is about all for now. Last day of my vacation, and we really don't have anything planned. I like it that way, I think. I have a test I have to take by Friday and another I have to take by Saturday, both of which I have not studied for. Maybe I will do that tonight, and tomorrow night. One of them is open book and notes, so that will help. 
Ryan is just now waking up.... haha. So I guess I better go! Our netflix should be in the mail today, so we will probably watch those, and maybe get out of the house sometime. 


Sorry if you are a normal reader of my blogs (if there is anyone haha) and I haven't been writing in it as much. Nothing really has been going on in my life but work, and a little school haha. So I will try to make my life more interesting so you have something better to read lol.

Mmmmk

Well here we are again. Let's just say this job is kicking my butt. I am not able to do much of anything anymore. Today is my day off, well day one of three, and I was planning on doing homework. I just finished one assignment and it about killed me. It is so hard for me to focus on school anymore. Once November starts I am going to kick it into gear and kick some psychology butt. I won't be on the November schedule for work, because I "quit" and what not. If you did not know that.... well now you do haha. It was in my blog a while back. 
Today I had my meeting with my counselor at the college. She told me basically a lot of things I already knew but also a lot of things that I didn't know. I have to take a few classes next semester in order to get into the LPN program in the fall, but she said that should not be a problem. There were a few unexpected classes in there, such as another math class, and just a USU titled class. So next semester my classes will consist of Microbiology (which is a 5 hour long class), math, Medical Terminology, and possibly anatomy. They told me I might not have to take anatomy again, so let's keep our fingers crossed. 
So LPN program in the fall, and RN by 2013. How exciting. So I will be a LPN by summer of next year (as in 2012). Wow I am so excited. Hope I don't get my butt kicked.... actually I am expecting to get my butt kicked, so I'll be holding on tight haha.
I am thinking of ideas for another tattoo. I know my mom is going to be pretty upset, but she was also upset about my last one until she saw it, and realized I'm not stupid, and got something tasteful. So this one will also be tasteful and have a lot of meaning, and also in a place that can be hidden. So the process begins! I am very excited. I said I wouldn't get another one, but I just feel like I want to. Maybe 2 is my number? We will see! I love you mom, don't unlove me please. You will love it I promise, I would never get something you wouldn't approve of .
So yes, that is all. Ryan has a hockey game tonight in about 2 hours, so that will be great. Then who knows. Maybe some more homework we will see. 

 Before I know it, I'll be walking out to this.... ughhhh snow :( stay far far away for as long as possible pleaaaase!

Starting over?

I feel like a lot has happened in the last couple days, and really nothing has haha. I just tend to get myself worked up over something that's really not that big of a deal. As most of you know, I got a new job when we got back from Effingham, and I really do like this job. Somehow I find myself enjoying it, when usually I am cleaning toilets or mopping lol. I think the part of it that I really liked was that I got home at about 3 in the afternoon, and working in the morning goes by really fast.
Now with that being said, there is an extremely bad side to this job. That is basically the only shift there is, 6 am to 3 pm. Everyone works that shift. So I figured since I had online classes this semester it would all be okay. Well it's not. I get up pretty easily in the morning, and am awake and okay to work, but by 3 I am sooooooo tired. All I want to do when i get home is sleep. And I definitely know I do not want to be doin homework. So let's just say my grades have not been doing so hot. I have 4 tests next week and I have not studied for any of them. I am basically just hoping to pass them.
I recently decided to change my major to nursing. I kind of have done this before but not officially. I just started taking the pre classes for it. Then I decided I wanted to just go back and do psychology. And now I know that I want to do nursing. What great timing hu? I could be finished already..... I have been out of high school long enough to already have this degree. But I was so undecided with what I wanted, all I was doing was changing my mind all the time. And moving here to Utah, we had to take all of their general classes that did not transfer over.
So basically, I am just now starting, well I will be in the fall. This makes me extremely upset, knowing I am this behind, when I could be finished, but I am not giving up. I am going to do something great with myself, not only for myself, but for Ryan and our future family. 
Back to the original story, I told my boss about it, and I am basically "quitting". I don't like saying that, because it sounds so bad. I feel awful about it too, they are all so sweet, but I have to do what is best for me. I am going to keep looking for a new job, that can work more flexibly with my school schedule. 
That is the news!! Not last night, but the night before was when I planned that I was going to tell her. I could not sleep for the life of me. I was so nervous, and felt so awful. I am just glad it went well, and she was extremely sweet about it. She actually wanted to keep me working, because she said I was a great worker, but she understands that school comes first. 
Yes, ma'am. That's the news in my life for the last couple days. Nothing too cool, but it has been a constant thing. Always on my mind, feeling bad, and not knowing what to say. I'm just lucky to work with amazing, understanding people. 
New job......... call me ;) hahaha I'll be waiting. Randi needs monies lol

The reason for anything, and everything I do ^^^^^ I love him 


"You make me smile like the sun
Fall outta bed
Sing like a bird
Dizzy in my head
Spin like a record crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold
Buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild.... oh you make me smile! "